Goodbye 2012!

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The beginning of 2012

No turning back!!!

New Year Gift from my daughter! ;)

A memorable New Year Count-down with baba s, kaka & dada s!
(1st time in my life) celebrating outside the church~

Sweet December 2011 on Phuket

Year-End Resolution:
Totally a new and exciting chapter has begun in this twenty eleven...
through many ups & downs...
but engaged into God's amazing work...
just with the faith in Him...
yet, could experience and feel the love A LOT...
from my lovely students & kids around me,
from R., from ba ba s, ka ka & da da s, from ate s & kuya s...
though I'm away from my dear ones!
Thank you, Lord for everything!

Unforgettable Moment

Happy Birthday, Jesus!

The precious Christmas gift from my two beloved Da Da s

The heart-felt message & the small Christmas gifts from R.

The Christmas Present from ACF

All churches on Phuket joined!


Last day of performing...
My kids seemed to be w/ low batteries and there were 2 boys short of for Soprano & Bass parts on that day. Whatever, I can say they did really great as they even have never sung an English song (i mean... properly) let alone a CHOIR!
Praise the Lord! & Hi5 to my lovely students from Jump Start~
:)

A Reminder to myself! ^.^

I've read the book: 'The Purpose Driven Life' a couple of years ago but I didn't really understand the meaning of it as I was not matured yet and didn't really experience the presence of God in me. (it doesn't mean I'm matured now :D)

As the time goes by and when I re-read this book from the beginning Day 1, it's so amazing and I feel like God's speaking to me through every single sentence and the impact is tremendously invaluable.
:)

When I reached to the chapter: Day 13 (the particular title is "Worship that pleases God"), I just couldn't stay without praising God on the spot because God showed me a solution which I've been searching for.

I come from a very traditional Baptist background. As I get older and lots of things also just keep on changing in my life. I have been moving from one place after another where God wants me to be. Then, I'd joined churches with different denominations. Yet, I am so used to and just stitch to my old traditional worship style that I feel uneasy in clapping hands, praising out loud, speaking other tongues, etc. though I only try to focus on the sermons. And sometimes, I even felt like I might be closer to God, be happier and feel free in worshiping the Lord if I could be in a church standing and sitting modestly in a pew, singing hymns,... Anyway, I still wanted to be clear with God and to myself regarding to this fact.

After going through the whole chapter 13... ...

... Your biggest distraction in worship is yourself - your interests and your worries over what others think about you.
... Christians often differ on the most appropriate or authentic way to express praise to God, but these arguments usually just reflect personality and background differences.
... The best style of worship is the one that most authentically represents your love for God, based on the background and personality God gave you.
... Many Christians seem stuck in a worship rut - an unsatisfying routine - instead of having a vibrant friendship with God, because they force themselves to use devotional methods or worship styles that don't fit the way God uniquely shaped them.
... There is no "one-size-fits-all" approach to worship and friendship with God. One thing is certain: You don't bring glory to God by trying to be someone he never intended you to be. God wants you to be yourself."That's the kind of people the Father is out looking for: those who are simply and honestly themselves before him in their worship."

That's it. That's what I wanted to know. God is great. He knows me well. He knows my every single thought and He reveals the solution of my puzzle at the right time. :)

Missing Tazaung Tine Festival...

The mountain maiden's Dream...

Song of the month!

All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I am meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you

Eugene(Flynn):
All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things, the way they were
Now she's here shining in the starlight
Now she's here, suddenly I know
If she's here it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

Rapunzel & Eugene (Flynn):
And at last I see the light

Eugene (Flynn):
And it's like the fog has lifted

Rapunzel & Eugene (Flynn):
And at last I see the light

Rapunzel:
And it's like the sky is new

Rapunzel & Eugene(Flynn):
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once, everything is different
Now that I see you, now that I see you

A Day on which I feel BEING HOME on Phuket!

~7:30 AM
Lesson plan - √
Thumb drive - √
Passport, WP book - √
Wallet - √
... ... ...
BD present! - √
(Last night, I arrived back home quite late as I was at office until 8PM with R. , then went to Central Festival to look for a BD present, I wanna give it to R. on her BD as a surprise! As you know, I could do things only at last minutes. lol)

Great! Everything is in my bag now and I am about to head to Jump Start LC.
Oops... BD card!
umm... why not a BD "ecard"? ;) Yes, that will be just wonderful!
... ...
Done!
Leaving house at around 7:45 AM.

At 12:15 PM,
"Look at her, Naw."
"What?"
"What happened with her face, Naw?"
"Again? What are you talking about?"
I look back and there, she is... with bruises all over her face!
I'm so shocked. She just had an accident this morning while she was biking.
She comes to JS to treat the kids ice-cream on her BD. After having a short conversation with all of us, she left.

I also left JS in the afternoon as usual heading back to office. During this week, I've been frustrated by my computer as it's crashed. I am reinstalling Ubuntu... and you know what? The only one Ubuntu Live CD is torn into pieces inside the CD-ROM drive while running. Unbelievable! Anyway, thank God. Now, I have to open my PC box, take out the drive and make sure there's no debris left inside it. Yeah... I'm doing the practical of what I'd learned in uni. :P

~ 4:00 PM
3 other office staff and 2 SH kids ask me to join while they are bringing a small BD cake to R. We sing a BD song for her, take a couple of pictures together. The 2 kids are really helpful in finishing the cake.

Alright. I'm done. I'm switching everything off before I leave. Now, only two of us are left in the office. R. asks me whether I'm still doing my work or else to go quick shopping for her mini BD party tonight. Of coz, I won't be happier as long as I can be with her, so, I just say I'm gonna follow her and help her. At that specific time, I give her my BD present and a hug. Ohh.. she's opening it on the spot. I overwhelm with joy when she said she likes it and put it on straight away.


Yahoooo... It feels so good to ride in the van she drives like before. (She won't know, I value even such lit' things.) I thank God again that I can stay by her side while she needs help. I know she's a strong great lady who tries to do things just by herself if possible though she's in need. However, I am so pleased to carry things, prepare things for her cooking and do whatever she asks me which she can't (coz of her injuries).

~7:30 PM
SH kids and those who are invited are arriving. And tonight special menus: spaghetti bolognese, salad, garlic bread, apple/orange juice are almost ready to be served.
From then on, the kids make her feel special with their handmade BD cards and the party is filled with laughter and chit-chats. Chocolate ice-cream adds the sweetness of the party before they all go back.
While the kids are around, I tell her that I am feeling like being home and she smiles. Yeah... I wanna cry.

~10:00 PM
Again, only two of us are left.
We talk and share our childhoods. I don't need to pretend at this moment.
Once there are people around her, I just stay away from her. I don't know. I always do the same thing that I'm fond of being with the ones I love when there's no other people, but, when they have someone around and happy, I'd just watch them from a distance and basically, I don't want to let others know that I love them and care for them. Most of all, I am afraid of my secret admirers know my true feeling on them. Damn!

To confess, I wanna sleep with her at least for tonight. Well.. it's too much. I love my mom very much. I know she does too. But, my life's situations have not allowed me to feel that affection. That's why I always crave for such things from whoever I love.

Back home... with empty heart!

It's on August 18!