Goodbye 2012!

... ...

The beginning of 2012

No turning back!!!

New Year Gift from my daughter! ;)

A memorable New Year Count-down with baba s, kaka & dada s!
(1st time in my life) celebrating outside the church~

Sweet December 2011 on Phuket

Year-End Resolution:
Totally a new and exciting chapter has begun in this twenty eleven...
through many ups & downs...
but engaged into God's amazing work...
just with the faith in Him...
yet, could experience and feel the love A LOT...
from my lovely students & kids around me,
from R., from ba ba s, ka ka & da da s, from ate s & kuya s...
though I'm away from my dear ones!
Thank you, Lord for everything!

Unforgettable Moment

Happy Birthday, Jesus!

The precious Christmas gift from my two beloved Da Da s

The heart-felt message & the small Christmas gifts from R.

The Christmas Present from ACF

All churches on Phuket joined!


Last day of performing...
My kids seemed to be w/ low batteries and there were 2 boys short of for Soprano & Bass parts on that day. Whatever, I can say they did really great as they even have never sung an English song (i mean... properly) let alone a CHOIR!
Praise the Lord! & Hi5 to my lovely students from Jump Start~
:)

A Reminder to myself! ^.^

I've read the book: 'The Purpose Driven Life' a couple of years ago but I didn't really understand the meaning of it as I was not matured yet and didn't really experience the presence of God in me. (it doesn't mean I'm matured now :D)

As the time goes by and when I re-read this book from the beginning Day 1, it's so amazing and I feel like God's speaking to me through every single sentence and the impact is tremendously invaluable.
:)

When I reached to the chapter: Day 13 (the particular title is "Worship that pleases God"), I just couldn't stay without praising God on the spot because God showed me a solution which I've been searching for.

I come from a very traditional Baptist background. As I get older and lots of things also just keep on changing in my life. I have been moving from one place after another where God wants me to be. Then, I'd joined churches with different denominations. Yet, I am so used to and just stitch to my old traditional worship style that I feel uneasy in clapping hands, praising out loud, speaking other tongues, etc. though I only try to focus on the sermons. And sometimes, I even felt like I might be closer to God, be happier and feel free in worshiping the Lord if I could be in a church standing and sitting modestly in a pew, singing hymns,... Anyway, I still wanted to be clear with God and to myself regarding to this fact.

After going through the whole chapter 13... ...

... Your biggest distraction in worship is yourself - your interests and your worries over what others think about you.
... Christians often differ on the most appropriate or authentic way to express praise to God, but these arguments usually just reflect personality and background differences.
... The best style of worship is the one that most authentically represents your love for God, based on the background and personality God gave you.
... Many Christians seem stuck in a worship rut - an unsatisfying routine - instead of having a vibrant friendship with God, because they force themselves to use devotional methods or worship styles that don't fit the way God uniquely shaped them.
... There is no "one-size-fits-all" approach to worship and friendship with God. One thing is certain: You don't bring glory to God by trying to be someone he never intended you to be. God wants you to be yourself."That's the kind of people the Father is out looking for: those who are simply and honestly themselves before him in their worship."

That's it. That's what I wanted to know. God is great. He knows me well. He knows my every single thought and He reveals the solution of my puzzle at the right time. :)

Missing Tazaung Tine Festival...

The mountain maiden's Dream...

Song of the month!

All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I am meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you

Eugene(Flynn):
All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things, the way they were
Now she's here shining in the starlight
Now she's here, suddenly I know
If she's here it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

Rapunzel & Eugene (Flynn):
And at last I see the light

Eugene (Flynn):
And it's like the fog has lifted

Rapunzel & Eugene (Flynn):
And at last I see the light

Rapunzel:
And it's like the sky is new

Rapunzel & Eugene(Flynn):
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once, everything is different
Now that I see you, now that I see you

A Day on which I feel BEING HOME on Phuket!

~7:30 AM
Lesson plan - √
Thumb drive - √
Passport, WP book - √
Wallet - √
... ... ...
BD present! - √
(Last night, I arrived back home quite late as I was at office until 8PM with R. , then went to Central Festival to look for a BD present, I wanna give it to R. on her BD as a surprise! As you know, I could do things only at last minutes. lol)

Great! Everything is in my bag now and I am about to head to Jump Start LC.
Oops... BD card!
umm... why not a BD "ecard"? ;) Yes, that will be just wonderful!
... ...
Done!
Leaving house at around 7:45 AM.

At 12:15 PM,
"Look at her, Naw."
"What?"
"What happened with her face, Naw?"
"Again? What are you talking about?"
I look back and there, she is... with bruises all over her face!
I'm so shocked. She just had an accident this morning while she was biking.
She comes to JS to treat the kids ice-cream on her BD. After having a short conversation with all of us, she left.

I also left JS in the afternoon as usual heading back to office. During this week, I've been frustrated by my computer as it's crashed. I am reinstalling Ubuntu... and you know what? The only one Ubuntu Live CD is torn into pieces inside the CD-ROM drive while running. Unbelievable! Anyway, thank God. Now, I have to open my PC box, take out the drive and make sure there's no debris left inside it. Yeah... I'm doing the practical of what I'd learned in uni. :P

~ 4:00 PM
3 other office staff and 2 SH kids ask me to join while they are bringing a small BD cake to R. We sing a BD song for her, take a couple of pictures together. The 2 kids are really helpful in finishing the cake.

Alright. I'm done. I'm switching everything off before I leave. Now, only two of us are left in the office. R. asks me whether I'm still doing my work or else to go quick shopping for her mini BD party tonight. Of coz, I won't be happier as long as I can be with her, so, I just say I'm gonna follow her and help her. At that specific time, I give her my BD present and a hug. Ohh.. she's opening it on the spot. I overwhelm with joy when she said she likes it and put it on straight away.


Yahoooo... It feels so good to ride in the van she drives like before. (She won't know, I value even such lit' things.) I thank God again that I can stay by her side while she needs help. I know she's a strong great lady who tries to do things just by herself if possible though she's in need. However, I am so pleased to carry things, prepare things for her cooking and do whatever she asks me which she can't (coz of her injuries).

~7:30 PM
SH kids and those who are invited are arriving. And tonight special menus: spaghetti bolognese, salad, garlic bread, apple/orange juice are almost ready to be served.
From then on, the kids make her feel special with their handmade BD cards and the party is filled with laughter and chit-chats. Chocolate ice-cream adds the sweetness of the party before they all go back.
While the kids are around, I tell her that I am feeling like being home and she smiles. Yeah... I wanna cry.

~10:00 PM
Again, only two of us are left.
We talk and share our childhoods. I don't need to pretend at this moment.
Once there are people around her, I just stay away from her. I don't know. I always do the same thing that I'm fond of being with the ones I love when there's no other people, but, when they have someone around and happy, I'd just watch them from a distance and basically, I don't want to let others know that I love them and care for them. Most of all, I am afraid of my secret admirers know my true feeling on them. Damn!

To confess, I wanna sleep with her at least for tonight. Well.. it's too much. I love my mom very much. I know she does too. But, my life's situations have not allowed me to feel that affection. That's why I always crave for such things from whoever I love.

Back home... with empty heart!

It's on August 18!

Tons of memo bein' recalled! ;)

18!!!
I love this no. a lot. It's not just by accident but whenever I notice, most of my unforgettable days and things were happened on this day.

I might not remember all of them but, in this 2011, a new chapter of my life has begun! I arrived to a place which I had never been before to join a christian org. on March 18. From that day on, I'm having a life that I've longed for: serving the Lord through working with the children, working for the person I admire, care and love with all my heart.

My birthday fell on May 18, which was Wednesday for this year. So, it was just a normal working day and as I was still new to my environment, people here didn't really know my birthday (except my director and F. manager who is on my FB already) and I also didn't want to let them know. But, my dear ones and who are on my FB, they knew it. So, it was like I was in different territory with them but they wished me through FB, emails and we celebrated the VIRTUAL birthday in my private world. At that time, I was just satisfied with what I could have but I still missed the time being with my dear ones and esp. the birthday cake for me. I thought I won't be able to have my birthday cake for this year. Surprisingly, you know what? In the evening, when I finished my work, I went downstairs, lied on the couch and fell asleep. R. came and woke me up and said, "Do you want to pass your birthday just by sleeping, dear?". I was so... speechless and overwhelmed with joy. After that, she asked me to change my clothes and brought me to the Central Festival. There, we had a wonderful dinner, followed by a CHEESE CAKE, my most favorite.

Thank you, Lord. It's such a blessing which I even didn't imagine. Moreover, what a coincidence is that while we were having our dinner at Black Canyon and she was asking about my someone special, I got a phone call from him and I choked. yahooo~ they all made my big day!

In addition, I received my work permit book exactly on that day. It was also an incredible present from ACF.

June 18... it has been literally 3 months that I'm on this island, I am pretty sure of what I was doing here and what I'm gonna do next. I could decide for my life though I felt bad for my family of not being a dutiful daughter because of my decision. It's damn true that serving the Lord is not a bed of roses, but full of challenges, sacrifices and tough.

And, R., two couches and ten Rugby boys left to Manchester today. There were lots of difficulties in preparations for this trip, but finally, we could make it just by God's grace. I saw R. had been stressed and struggled by all these trials in these past few weeks and so, I always have been trying to find a way to give her a hand. I couldn't have much access for a project she assigned to me, yet, I handed the video clip which she asked me to do just this morning before she left to England. I was so pleased to see her happy and it's worth to put all my time and effort. At least, she can do something better with what I gave.

At last, Kids Club kick-off!

A Mother's Day Surprise!

I feel quite uncomfortable to tell but today is one of the happiest Mother's Days I have had so far! You know why I said so? Well... actually, my mom (my biological mother) has not been able to be with me since more than 5 years ago. I have been away from my family and out-stationed my country for the further studies and work. Of course, we still used to skype with webcam, chat and sometimes I call. We have never been out of contact.

Alright... this year, I am in a new environment again. I don't know many other people from this town apart from my team. I was thinking of what would be gonna happen and what I would do on this Mother's Day. Anyway, I could manage to chat with my mom and wished her "A Blessed Mother's day". She is still the very first person whom I said those words to for this year. After that, I got an idea and I sent an email with the below greeting card to my aunties. I was missing them, too.

I really thank God that throughout all these times while my mom was not around, I was being loved, cared and mentored by my god-mas and aunties. In all my ups and downs and in between, they were always by my side. They shared my tears which I hardly did with my mom.

Oh, I wanna tell something about God's another blessing to me. Now, I am having a life which I have longed for. I am staying with my director in the same building of where my office is. (She and I have the same circumstance that we are away from our dear ones, we come from different countries to serve the Lord here.) I know this is just for temporary according to the current situation but I value these times while I can and every single moment with her means a lot to me because I can treat her like a mother (though I don't let her know obviously. I don't wanna mix the work and our relationship, & ultimately I don't want others think I might take advantage on our closeness. I am so particular on this matter). Serving her, caring for her,... brings the real joy to me. And vise versa, caring back to me, guiding me spiritually, letting me behave like her daughter at our personnel time count, too.

So, I was quite excited to surprise her on this Mother's Day. Finally, I could get the things which she likes, wrapped with the packing paper, wrote a wish note on it and placed in front of her bedroom in the very early morning before she woke up. I was overjoyed when she came downstairs and said ' I love it & thank you' to me. I still was not satisfied with it and wanted to do something else for her. After having our breakfast, we went to attend the morning service as usual. In the afternoon, we went shopping. I could never imagine that I would enjoy following someone who does shopping for ladies' clothes and stuff. I was not a girly type and I preferred to go out with my big brothers for electronics. But, I do now! At that time, a flash popped out in my mind and I decided to cook chicken curry as a special dinner for her. At the end of the day, I just thanked God and reassured of my most favorite quote: There is more happiness in GIVING than in receiving!

Thank you...
I admire you so much and love you!

Just before I turn 25!

I LOVE YOU, oh LORD!(Psalm 18:1)
I didn't know him at all and he was not famous when my sisters from Clementi house introduced me myanmar movies. I unintentionally gave a look to this movie as someone whom I don't know commented on one of my photos that I look alike him. Since then, I admire him coz... I came to know that he used to be an ENGINEER!!!
lol

I was a couch potato coz of his movies and became familiar with myanmar songs. I just love this song so much as I don't even remember how many time I did repeat these scenes...
;)


Anyway, I love you, too... ma ma ou wae!
:)



Finally, this vid. is meant for my SOMEONE SPECIAL!

My Last PRAYER in 2010!

Lord, I WAS sure I heard your call. I don't seem to be very good at it. I know that. Maybe I misunderstood the feeling I had. I don't know, God. I'm so mixed up. But, that strong desire to serve you in SOME WAY was there even before I left Singapore. Surely that was from you, Lord. I need your help, I can't do it without you. Please, dear God - give me wisdom and direction. I'm willing to work here - for as long as it takes - if that is your will. Show me, Lord. Show me what to do and help me to BE PATIENT. I know I'm always in a hurry. I've always pushed myself, Lord. I'm not good at learning things. I don't need to push here. I need to OBEY and wait for you. Lord, grant me a heart to SURRENDER EVERYTHING unto you. In Jesus, most precious name I pray, Amen.

I've been spending most of my online time on Facebook especially in this year 2010. Just a couple of days ago, a new application came out again. It can organize and show all of my status messages which I posted on my wall within this whole year. I was quite impressed by it and so, well... I'd like to keep 'em as memo on my blog... and here, they are!!!

A Blessed Birthday to JESUS... Ti May & STA!

I am an ERASER for YOU!

Pencil: I'm sorry....

Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.

Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.

Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)


Ref: from one of the FWD emails

Miniatur Wunderland Hamburg

Well...

This is really amazing!

It somehow reminds me of my very first ambition when I was a mere gal...

This little virtual place covers only SOME PARTS of the whole world, right?

Imagine that one day, I still can be in a team which might be able to design and build another prototype of we ALL BEINGS on earth!

Why not?...

;)

Going HOME...

Going home going home
I am going home
Quiet like, some still day
I am going home

It's not far, just close by,
through an open door
Work all done, care laid by
never fear no more

Mother's there expecting me
Father's waiting too
Lots of faces gathered there
All the friends I knew

I'm just going home

No more fear No more pain
No more stumbling by the way
No more longing for the day
Going to run no more

Morning star lights the way
Restless dreams all gone
Shadows gone, break of day
real life has begun

There's no break, there's no end
Just living on
Wide awake, with a smile
going on and on

Going home Going home
I am going home
shadows gone break of day
real life has begun

I'm just going home

... ... ...

A Blessed Birthday to you, Ah Wa!

Ah Wa... grai tsawra ai, grai dum ai yaw.

!_!

That's why i DIDN'T care of

whether people regarded me as a TOMBOY or whatever...

as your TRUST on me MEANS rather than any other things else!

I'm afraid I can meet A MAN like you, Dad!

U.U

If you were with me now, I'd find myself in you

If you were with me now, You are the only one who knew

All the things we planned to do

I want to live my life, The way you said I would...

With courage as my light, Fighting for what's right

Like you made me believe I could... ... ...

Mahkra hpe grai chyeju kaba ai, Ah Wa!

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August 31, 2010 (Tuesday) ... ... A Day on which I was in RUINS!

>>> Lord, let me cry out loud this time and please don't cease my tears falling down from the bottom of my heart... as i can't take it!
it really hurts. seems like my whole world is gone...
i don't have any more STRENGTH to survive on this DOG EAT DOG WORLD!!!

>>> returned to the grave where nobody WON'T be jealous on me, raise competition with me and put a knife in my back...

>>> i terribly NEED YOU to cuddle me... ... ...
i'm so tired by letting my lachryma jump out from my two eyes!

Last time, I hardly post such kinda messages on my timeline on Facebook. I just don't understand myself that why I have changed. It seems like I'm getting emo easily and can't control to keep those feelings like before.

I was so weary and just kept on praying to God. And complained about why He let me face with that calamity. After a while, I flipped my ODB (Our Daily Bread) and read the article for August 31. Before I grasped the Bible, I turned to the last page reluctantly because I just wanna finish the whole content by then. But, by the time I went through every single words of that special article called "The Trust That Overcomes", I cr ied and confessed to God as He is the One who never let his child be far away from Him. He always draws me near back to Him whenever I was downhearted. I just would like to share it as it did touch and mean to me and ... I hope to you all as well!

On the old Happy Days television show, Richie Cunningham had just been "grounded for life" by his father, Howard, for misbehavior. As they talke d about it, Howard asked his son, "Did you know that there is a lesson in this for you?" Richie's response was priceless: "I figured anything with this much pain had to have a lesson in it somewhere."

In one of the most practical books in the New Testament, James wrote these words: "My brethren, could it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing" (1:2-4).

James' point is simple - God doesn't waste anything! Everything happens in our lives for a reason, and a great part of that reason is to help us grow in our faith.

It has been said that life has to be lived in a forward motion but can only be understood by looking back. This demands that we trust in the loving pruposes of a sovereign God. We must trust that He is in control - especially when life seems to be out of control.

The Old Testament character Joseph had a life filled with dark, difficult experiences - yet the final outcome was amazing. He learned through extremely difficult circumstances how to trust God and to overcome. His example can help us as we face the issue of life.

In Genesis 50:20, we read his words to his brothers who had sold him into slavery: "As for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive." This amazing perspective reflected a life that had embraced the living God and trusted Him completely.

AS you face the heartaches of life, it is only by complete confidence in the goodness and plan of God that you can overcome. The things that could destroy you can become building blocks on the journey of faith as you look for the hand of God in all circumstances . "This is the victory that has overcome the world - our faith" (1 John 5:4).

If you have never confessed your sin and trusted Jesus as your Lord and Savior, life can be a jumble of confusion. But the One who gave Himself for you r failures can bring rightness with God, forgiveness of sin, and a new sense of wholeness and purpose into your weary soul. Christ came into the world because of His love for you, and that love can bring an end to the emptiness or bitterness or sinfulness that wracks your life.

Accept by faith the gift of eternal life and personal forgiveness He offers, for the only one way to really overcome forever is to accept the victory of Calvary that He accomplished for you: "The gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Rom. 6:23). That is real victory - and real overcoming.

A precious stuff to me

(got it on the day exactly 5 months before his coming BD for 2010)

KK,
I reminded you not to write down your name with signature AS USUAL,
but you did
... ...
wanna PUNCH you!
'cos I don't want to be treated like others~


I told you to mention only a word "nyimalay",
but you put my name
... ...
wanna HUG you!
'cos that showed you recognize me~

;)

I AM ( ( 8 x 3! ) / 3 ) + 8

1 Thessalonians 5:18
Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

You Gave So Much To Me
By Joanna Fuchs

Mom and Dad, I wonder if
You know how much I care.
I got the good things, all I have,
Because you both were there.I thank you for the time you spent,
Doing all you did.
You help me now; you helped me then
When I was just a kid.Unselfish, giving, loving, more...
You gave so much to me.
Without you, Mom and Dad, I don’t
Know what on earth I’d be.Thank you for the way you are,
Like angels from above;
I thank you both for everything,
And give you all my love.

If it is God's will, I will...

A Blessed Mother's Day to you, Ah Nu!
I love you so much and I'm so glad that you had been a teacher, too.