Song of the month!

All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I am meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you

Eugene(Flynn):
All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things, the way they were
Now she's here shining in the starlight
Now she's here, suddenly I know
If she's here it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

Rapunzel & Eugene (Flynn):
And at last I see the light

Eugene (Flynn):
And it's like the fog has lifted

Rapunzel & Eugene (Flynn):
And at last I see the light

Rapunzel:
And it's like the sky is new

Rapunzel & Eugene(Flynn):
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once, everything is different
Now that I see you, now that I see you

A Day on which I feel BEING HOME on Phuket!

~7:30 AM
Lesson plan - √
Thumb drive - √
Passport, WP book - √
Wallet - √
... ... ...
BD present! - √
(Last night, I arrived back home quite late as I was at office until 8PM with R. , then went to Central Festival to look for a BD present, I wanna give it to R. on her BD as a surprise! As you know, I could do things only at last minutes. lol)

Great! Everything is in my bag now and I am about to head to Jump Start LC.
Oops... BD card!
umm... why not a BD "ecard"? ;) Yes, that will be just wonderful!
... ...
Done!
Leaving house at around 7:45 AM.

At 12:15 PM,
"Look at her, Naw."
"What?"
"What happened with her face, Naw?"
"Again? What are you talking about?"
I look back and there, she is... with bruises all over her face!
I'm so shocked. She just had an accident this morning while she was biking.
She comes to JS to treat the kids ice-cream on her BD. After having a short conversation with all of us, she left.

I also left JS in the afternoon as usual heading back to office. During this week, I've been frustrated by my computer as it's crashed. I am reinstalling Ubuntu... and you know what? The only one Ubuntu Live CD is torn into pieces inside the CD-ROM drive while running. Unbelievable! Anyway, thank God. Now, I have to open my PC box, take out the drive and make sure there's no debris left inside it. Yeah... I'm doing the practical of what I'd learned in uni. :P

~ 4:00 PM
3 other office staff and 2 SH kids ask me to join while they are bringing a small BD cake to R. We sing a BD song for her, take a couple of pictures together. The 2 kids are really helpful in finishing the cake.

Alright. I'm done. I'm switching everything off before I leave. Now, only two of us are left in the office. R. asks me whether I'm still doing my work or else to go quick shopping for her mini BD party tonight. Of coz, I won't be happier as long as I can be with her, so, I just say I'm gonna follow her and help her. At that specific time, I give her my BD present and a hug. Ohh.. she's opening it on the spot. I overwhelm with joy when she said she likes it and put it on straight away.


Yahoooo... It feels so good to ride in the van she drives like before. (She won't know, I value even such lit' things.) I thank God again that I can stay by her side while she needs help. I know she's a strong great lady who tries to do things just by herself if possible though she's in need. However, I am so pleased to carry things, prepare things for her cooking and do whatever she asks me which she can't (coz of her injuries).

~7:30 PM
SH kids and those who are invited are arriving. And tonight special menus: spaghetti bolognese, salad, garlic bread, apple/orange juice are almost ready to be served.
From then on, the kids make her feel special with their handmade BD cards and the party is filled with laughter and chit-chats. Chocolate ice-cream adds the sweetness of the party before they all go back.
While the kids are around, I tell her that I am feeling like being home and she smiles. Yeah... I wanna cry.

~10:00 PM
Again, only two of us are left.
We talk and share our childhoods. I don't need to pretend at this moment.
Once there are people around her, I just stay away from her. I don't know. I always do the same thing that I'm fond of being with the ones I love when there's no other people, but, when they have someone around and happy, I'd just watch them from a distance and basically, I don't want to let others know that I love them and care for them. Most of all, I am afraid of my secret admirers know my true feeling on them. Damn!

To confess, I wanna sleep with her at least for tonight. Well.. it's too much. I love my mom very much. I know she does too. But, my life's situations have not allowed me to feel that affection. That's why I always crave for such things from whoever I love.

Back home... with empty heart!

It's on August 18!