Song of the month!

All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I am meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you

Eugene(Flynn):
All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things, the way they were
Now she's here shining in the starlight
Now she's here, suddenly I know
If she's here it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

Rapunzel & Eugene (Flynn):
And at last I see the light

Eugene (Flynn):
And it's like the fog has lifted

Rapunzel & Eugene (Flynn):
And at last I see the light

Rapunzel:
And it's like the sky is new

Rapunzel & Eugene(Flynn):
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once, everything is different
Now that I see you, now that I see you

A Day on which I feel BEING HOME on Phuket!

~7:30 AM
Lesson plan - √
Thumb drive - √
Passport, WP book - √
Wallet - √
... ... ...
BD present! - √
(Last night, I arrived back home quite late as I was at office until 8PM with R. , then went to Central Festival to look for a BD present, I wanna give it to R. on her BD as a surprise! As you know, I could do things only at last minutes. lol)

Great! Everything is in my bag now and I am about to head to Jump Start LC.
Oops... BD card!
umm... why not a BD "ecard"? ;) Yes, that will be just wonderful!
... ...
Done!
Leaving house at around 7:45 AM.

At 12:15 PM,
"Look at her, Naw."
"What?"
"What happened with her face, Naw?"
"Again? What are you talking about?"
I look back and there, she is... with bruises all over her face!
I'm so shocked. She just had an accident this morning while she was biking.
She comes to JS to treat the kids ice-cream on her BD. After having a short conversation with all of us, she left.

I also left JS in the afternoon as usual heading back to office. During this week, I've been frustrated by my computer as it's crashed. I am reinstalling Ubuntu... and you know what? The only one Ubuntu Live CD is torn into pieces inside the CD-ROM drive while running. Unbelievable! Anyway, thank God. Now, I have to open my PC box, take out the drive and make sure there's no debris left inside it. Yeah... I'm doing the practical of what I'd learned in uni. :P

~ 4:00 PM
3 other office staff and 2 SH kids ask me to join while they are bringing a small BD cake to R. We sing a BD song for her, take a couple of pictures together. The 2 kids are really helpful in finishing the cake.

Alright. I'm done. I'm switching everything off before I leave. Now, only two of us are left in the office. R. asks me whether I'm still doing my work or else to go quick shopping for her mini BD party tonight. Of coz, I won't be happier as long as I can be with her, so, I just say I'm gonna follow her and help her. At that specific time, I give her my BD present and a hug. Ohh.. she's opening it on the spot. I overwhelm with joy when she said she likes it and put it on straight away.


Yahoooo... It feels so good to ride in the van she drives like before. (She won't know, I value even such lit' things.) I thank God again that I can stay by her side while she needs help. I know she's a strong great lady who tries to do things just by herself if possible though she's in need. However, I am so pleased to carry things, prepare things for her cooking and do whatever she asks me which she can't (coz of her injuries).

~7:30 PM
SH kids and those who are invited are arriving. And tonight special menus: spaghetti bolognese, salad, garlic bread, apple/orange juice are almost ready to be served.
From then on, the kids make her feel special with their handmade BD cards and the party is filled with laughter and chit-chats. Chocolate ice-cream adds the sweetness of the party before they all go back.
While the kids are around, I tell her that I am feeling like being home and she smiles. Yeah... I wanna cry.

~10:00 PM
Again, only two of us are left.
We talk and share our childhoods. I don't need to pretend at this moment.
Once there are people around her, I just stay away from her. I don't know. I always do the same thing that I'm fond of being with the ones I love when there's no other people, but, when they have someone around and happy, I'd just watch them from a distance and basically, I don't want to let others know that I love them and care for them. Most of all, I am afraid of my secret admirers know my true feeling on them. Damn!

To confess, I wanna sleep with her at least for tonight. Well.. it's too much. I love my mom very much. I know she does too. But, my life's situations have not allowed me to feel that affection. That's why I always crave for such things from whoever I love.

Back home... with empty heart!

It's on August 18!

Tons of memo bein' recalled! ;)

18!!!
I love this no. a lot. It's not just by accident but whenever I notice, most of my unforgettable days and things were happened on this day.

I might not remember all of them but, in this 2011, a new chapter of my life has begun! I arrived to a place which I had never been before to join a christian org. on March 18. From that day on, I'm having a life that I've longed for: serving the Lord through working with the children, working for the person I admire, care and love with all my heart.

My birthday fell on May 18, which was Wednesday for this year. So, it was just a normal working day and as I was still new to my environment, people here didn't really know my birthday (except my director and F. manager who is on my FB already) and I also didn't want to let them know. But, my dear ones and who are on my FB, they knew it. So, it was like I was in different territory with them but they wished me through FB, emails and we celebrated the VIRTUAL birthday in my private world. At that time, I was just satisfied with what I could have but I still missed the time being with my dear ones and esp. the birthday cake for me. I thought I won't be able to have my birthday cake for this year. Surprisingly, you know what? In the evening, when I finished my work, I went downstairs, lied on the couch and fell asleep. R. came and woke me up and said, "Do you want to pass your birthday just by sleeping, dear?". I was so... speechless and overwhelmed with joy. After that, she asked me to change my clothes and brought me to the Central Festival. There, we had a wonderful dinner, followed by a CHEESE CAKE, my most favorite.

Thank you, Lord. It's such a blessing which I even didn't imagine. Moreover, what a coincidence is that while we were having our dinner at Black Canyon and she was asking about my someone special, I got a phone call from him and I choked. yahooo~ they all made my big day!

In addition, I received my work permit book exactly on that day. It was also an incredible present from ACF.

June 18... it has been literally 3 months that I'm on this island, I am pretty sure of what I was doing here and what I'm gonna do next. I could decide for my life though I felt bad for my family of not being a dutiful daughter because of my decision. It's damn true that serving the Lord is not a bed of roses, but full of challenges, sacrifices and tough.

And, R., two couches and ten Rugby boys left to Manchester today. There were lots of difficulties in preparations for this trip, but finally, we could make it just by God's grace. I saw R. had been stressed and struggled by all these trials in these past few weeks and so, I always have been trying to find a way to give her a hand. I couldn't have much access for a project she assigned to me, yet, I handed the video clip which she asked me to do just this morning before she left to England. I was so pleased to see her happy and it's worth to put all my time and effort. At least, she can do something better with what I gave.

At last, Kids Club kick-off!

A Mother's Day Surprise!

I feel quite uncomfortable to tell but today is one of the happiest Mother's Days I have had so far! You know why I said so? Well... actually, my mom (my biological mother) has not been able to be with me since more than 5 years ago. I have been away from my family and out-stationed my country for the further studies and work. Of course, we still used to skype with webcam, chat and sometimes I call. We have never been out of contact.

Alright... this year, I am in a new environment again. I don't know many other people from this town apart from my team. I was thinking of what would be gonna happen and what I would do on this Mother's Day. Anyway, I could manage to chat with my mom and wished her "A Blessed Mother's day". She is still the very first person whom I said those words to for this year. After that, I got an idea and I sent an email with the below greeting card to my aunties. I was missing them, too.

I really thank God that throughout all these times while my mom was not around, I was being loved, cared and mentored by my god-mas and aunties. In all my ups and downs and in between, they were always by my side. They shared my tears which I hardly did with my mom.

Oh, I wanna tell something about God's another blessing to me. Now, I am having a life which I have longed for. I am staying with my director in the same building of where my office is. (She and I have the same circumstance that we are away from our dear ones, we come from different countries to serve the Lord here.) I know this is just for temporary according to the current situation but I value these times while I can and every single moment with her means a lot to me because I can treat her like a mother (though I don't let her know obviously. I don't wanna mix the work and our relationship, & ultimately I don't want others think I might take advantage on our closeness. I am so particular on this matter). Serving her, caring for her,... brings the real joy to me. And vise versa, caring back to me, guiding me spiritually, letting me behave like her daughter at our personnel time count, too.

So, I was quite excited to surprise her on this Mother's Day. Finally, I could get the things which she likes, wrapped with the packing paper, wrote a wish note on it and placed in front of her bedroom in the very early morning before she woke up. I was overjoyed when she came downstairs and said ' I love it & thank you' to me. I still was not satisfied with it and wanted to do something else for her. After having our breakfast, we went to attend the morning service as usual. In the afternoon, we went shopping. I could never imagine that I would enjoy following someone who does shopping for ladies' clothes and stuff. I was not a girly type and I preferred to go out with my big brothers for electronics. But, I do now! At that time, a flash popped out in my mind and I decided to cook chicken curry as a special dinner for her. At the end of the day, I just thanked God and reassured of my most favorite quote: There is more happiness in GIVING than in receiving!

Thank you...
I admire you so much and love you!

Just before I turn 25!

I LOVE YOU, oh LORD!(Psalm 18:1)
I didn't know him at all and he was not famous when my sisters from Clementi house introduced me myanmar movies. I unintentionally gave a look to this movie as someone whom I don't know commented on one of my photos that I look alike him. Since then, I admire him coz... I came to know that he used to be an ENGINEER!!!
lol

I was a couch potato coz of his movies and became familiar with myanmar songs. I just love this song so much as I don't even remember how many time I did repeat these scenes...
;)


Anyway, I love you, too... ma ma ou wae!
:)



Finally, this vid. is meant for my SOMEONE SPECIAL!

My Last PRAYER in 2010!

Lord, I WAS sure I heard your call. I don't seem to be very good at it. I know that. Maybe I misunderstood the feeling I had. I don't know, God. I'm so mixed up. But, that strong desire to serve you in SOME WAY was there even before I left Singapore. Surely that was from you, Lord. I need your help, I can't do it without you. Please, dear God - give me wisdom and direction. I'm willing to work here - for as long as it takes - if that is your will. Show me, Lord. Show me what to do and help me to BE PATIENT. I know I'm always in a hurry. I've always pushed myself, Lord. I'm not good at learning things. I don't need to push here. I need to OBEY and wait for you. Lord, grant me a heart to SURRENDER EVERYTHING unto you. In Jesus, most precious name I pray, Amen.

I've been spending most of my online time on Facebook especially in this year 2010. Just a couple of days ago, a new application came out again. It can organize and show all of my status messages which I posted on my wall within this whole year. I was quite impressed by it and so, well... I'd like to keep 'em as memo on my blog... and here, they are!!!

A Blessed Birthday to JESUS... Ti May & STA!